I Feel like i'm losing myself everyday, agh, don't get me started on those stupid peck necks of "guards"....last night i saw her, the hat lass, i yelled for her, though i don't think she saw me or heard my cries. Maybe...maybe she is the reason why i am here? agh the thought kills me. i really hope not, but seeing her walk by and talk to that person.....it could be possible.