its kinda sad that i just legitimately cant see a future for myself i cant picture myself living past like 18 i hate this place i hate living here its really hard to think that im not gonna end everything before i get the chance to have a fulfilling life everything's just terrible im really afraid to grow up people are so mean and considering how dumb and sensitive i am i cant see it ending well i cant see any of this ending well the world is a shitty fucking place i hate it